sonia's space

Many years ago,when my Mom was in her sixty, she got a visa to go to H.K.

she  told me if she was 20 years younger, she would..

 year later, my friend who was in her forties  got a visa to go to H.K. 

she told me" if i were 20 years younger, i  wll....   "

a few years later,   my nephew who was in twenties went to USA

after 10 years ,he told me "aunt,if i came here 早 20 years ,, i will have a wonderful future....."

They all felt that they wish they could go back in time twenty years

 and do things differently. they were aways dissatisfied with their lives,

 because they were always analyzing the past.  

 

My friend tell me " you have colorful life"......

 what is colorful life？if" colorful " means lots 活动。acts,,,,

I am not... but  i feel i have colorful life  is coming from my soul and

my mind  

Category: Life
Melting pot of the world

 

Dear friend：

 

Let me say that your letter appealed to me so much.It caused me to think about my life. Presently, i am building a new life in America, but my heart is always with my relatives. My home is neither here nor in my country. my home has stayed in my dream.

I have often dreamed I  went home. It seemes to me that i was going in by the iron entrance door. The garden had run wild.the weeds were everywhere. I stood there quite and still, watching my house that i had lived in. i felt that i had really come back.Suddenly the tears came to my eyes.....i feared coming home as much as i had been looking  forward to leaving it before.because of politics, I was forced into an abnormal life.I was sent to jall three times without any reason.

After I woke up from the dream, I found, fortunately, that i was still in America.Right now, in whatever state I am, I must go ahead. Life in America, though, is full of struggle, but I'll never be involved in politics again.I can use my freedom under certain rules to create my career. Of course I must face a lot of difficulty. Not knowing English seems like having a big lump in my throat.It make me feel the pain as you had.  But I always try to seize any opportunity  to learn more.

I agree, friend. that you should be what you are and be proud of it. if you want to go back, go only for visiting and reliving your childhood. your life ,your future can be foundin America. you can ensure that your personelity and values are supported here.

Well it has been our fortune to come america, whatever the future is, we must build our confidence. because nothing is difficult to a human being who has confidence in  himself.

 

God bless youy                           your friend  sonia

(sonia'english class on 1989 , cuesta college)

Category: Writing and Poetry .
 The Dream Of The Sea
I lay far away in a foreing land walking along the coast, quite and still. as walking by the river in my home. Sounds of the sea come up to me from the shore below . like the blown flowers from the bushes in my home.
The sea is a sheet of silver.Lying calm under the moon, as I lean on my husband without fear. No matter where I go .No matter how long I go, My heart is always close to my home   (sonia'english class homework on 1989 )

  

          Stefano,（ he is my  husband's nephew）who lost mother last year still can't  be released  from his suffering, after one more year waiting.. finally i write a letter with  card to him （ photo taked by stefano in europe）

 

亲爱的伟伟

我是如此荣幸having a relative and friend like you

  我，因你的痛苦深深地被牵挂着

As a mother

一种无法释然的痛苦是：对於自几孩子的痛苦的无奈

 

不论时间过了多久。her love， her careness  ，is always around you

 comfort you and   will  help you 从失去的痛苦中获得新的生命力

your mother 在天之灵也将从痛苦的无奈中获得释放